How on earth are we supposed to manage everything going on in our world and still look "perfect". My life is far from perfect and today is a "perfect" example of that.
Starting at 2am with being woken up by the thunder storm that shook the entire house great! Then Bossco my akita/shep all 175lbs of him freaking out and pacing and panting and just being in complete panic mode because it is storming out and he so scared of thunder is breaks my heart. Finally I talk him into calming down and doze off 3:30am Blaine wakes up this could have been caused by the storm, having to pee, a night terror, or just because my child doesn't sleep, like ever. I end up falling asleep next to him, causing Bossco to freak out once again because things have changed and its storming. I can't for the life of get him to come up and lay down with us so off he goes and hides in the bathroom. Blaine continues to wake up 2 more times. I finally sneak out not knowing what time it is, lay down in my bed and Blaines dad yells that its time to go...sigh its 6:15. Stop at tims woot!! they get my order right this morning with zero mix ups that's awesome!!! get part way to Blaines dads work and Blaine starts to puke, I SAVE THE BLANKEY (Go mom, go mom!). Get to dads work, get all the chucks off him and head back home. Get Blaine all cleaned up and his car seat cleaned up. Have a disagreement with Connely about parenting. Take Connely to school. Come back home its now 8:30am. I need a shower, Blaine needs a shower (oh this should be fun), I spend 15mins convincing him that we can't go to playgroup smelling like vomit. While doing this I am cleaning, taking out dinner, doing homeschool stuff and putting laundry in. Finally he agrees mainly because the dog tried to get into his new hiding spot and I wouldn't kick her out until he agreed to have a shower. It takes 5 mins to get him undressed and into the shower including promising that he can wash me with the loofa. By the time hes in the shower I now finished but have to be rewashed because that is the only way I can get him washed. Freak outs in the shower include: He is naked, he is wet, his hair is wet, his hair has soap in it, the water is too cold, the water is too hot. Finally he is washed and sitting playing with the toys in the bottom of the shower. I rinse off. I get out tell him to come get dried off with his pokemon towel NOOO its cold out there. Okay while I get dressed I try to convince him that he has to come out of the shower and get dressed so he isn't cold anymore. WOOT hes out!! dried and dressed. OMG I forgot to grab him socks!!! MELTDOWN because he has to have socks in order to wear his shoes and he has none on. SIGH I find him socks (the blue and red ones because I don't want another melt down) I get his socks on him. We get ready to go out the door for play group. Nope no shoes today, okay then no shoes thats fine whatever. Playgroup! Well surprisingly he did amazing at play group today, even played in the water and sand tables. Its time for us to go and he is okay with that. He has to then open or try to open EVERY locker on the way out of playgroup, this takes 10 mins. We pick Connely up from school and take him to work. On the way home Blaine starts freaking in his car seat that this IS NOT the way home. about 10 mins later freaking out the whole time, me trying to explain that its okay I promise we are going home, finally there is a corner he recognizes!!! Melt down over all is right with the world! We get home I make lunch, left over pasta (which he loved and ate last night), blueberries, melon and crackers. He takes one look at it and freaks out complete end of world melt down that he can't eat that because too much food makes him sick....SIGH....he only wants his milk okay fine whatever. I give him milk and dear god yes my phone because I needed to sew!!! I get the first sew done on the baby blanket and start pinning the silk. MELT DOWN!!! about grass seed ( from last night left in the seeder) getting wet from the storm and it is not okay!!! Get him semi calm with the promise we are going outside RIGHT NOW to make sure the grass seed is just fine. Get his shoes on just right so the tag isn't funny and nothing is rubbing his socks and dad calls they are being sent home early. It is 1pm off to pick up dad promising we will check the grass seed as soon as we get back and dad will even play with you outside. Half way to pick up he realizes we forgot blankey MELT DOWN. okay distract with learning car games! nope nothing is good enough. Pick up dad come home and dad takes him outside. I have a migraine and am very very sore from my own lovely issues. I lay down. Blaine and Lexi coming running in 45 mins into my nap soaking wet. He needs a change of clothes okay well dad can help you. MELT DOWN and 15 mins of trying to get him changed because he doesn't want to be wet but he doesn't want to get undressed either and the dog MIGHT lick him. Finally get him changed and dinner into him, well okay like 3 blueberries but whatever. Off to the park because it is too hot to walk the dogs today and then photo shoot on Grandpas old Harley for Grandpas birthday. Dad takes him to the park because I am too sore to do anymore today. I decide a blog post is what I need to do. Mid blog post Connely needs picked up from work because his day is finished. He has to fend for himself. It is 6:00pm, I have gotten like nothing done today and it is almost time for Blaines bed time. Milk, a chapter from one a book we are reading, a chapter from the learning book (right now it is The Yukon), and an easy reader sometimes he helps me read it sometimes he is too tired (this week is bears on wheels), I sing three songs while rubbing his head and eyes and then I rest my arm on him for a 100 count, roll over but facing him for a 50 count and then some nights I get lucky and hes out other nights its out of bed and try again in 15 mins. Tonight I got lucky and he was out!!! I let the dogs out and suddenly is the dark Lexi is in the other yard, she has gotten out chasing a chipmunk. I panic, Bossco is in panic mode and Lexi is pacing the fence panicking that she got out and can't figure out how to get back. Richard climbs the 6ft fence and passes Lexi to Connely over the fence. We find the tiny hole she squeezed through and fix it! Now I get to pin the silk around a blanket and cut tulle for client orders. Blaine wakes up once to pee, by the end of this is it 11:00pm and I make and drink my "Big Chill" tea from Davids tea. Blaine sleeps until 1:45am wakes up for pee and milk. I get him back to sleep and let the dogs out. I go back to bed. Blaine wakes up again at 3:30am from a night terror I end up falling asleep in there. Richard wakes me at 6am and the day starts all over again!
One day things will change and slow down. One day he wont need me as much. One day he will be able to cope with life better. One day I will miss all of this. So today no matter how unperfect my life is I live in every moment!
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