Velveteen Rabbit

Nightmares and still cry even when I think about it. I wont ever own it or read to any child because of what it does to me.

The Velveteen Rabbit, I swear is one of the worlds saddest children's books.

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I had the exact book in the photo above.

Its about a toy rabbit that becomes a real rabbit. That isn't the horrible part. This boy gets the bunny for Christmas but ignores it for better toys and the bunny gets tossed aside. Well it just so happens later on the boy loves this toy and it goes everywhere with him they become best friends. The boy gets very very sick and the stuffed bunny never leaves his side. Well the doctor orders all this toys and room to be burned and disenfected including his favourite stuffed bunny.

The poor bunny is tossed into a sack and left in the garden where the boy and the rabbit spent most of their time having picnics and playing together, he cries and images the times they had together. The rabbit fairy comes and turns him into a real rabbit.

I don't know why this book has the memories it has, or why it has stuck with me my whole life. Or why I am even crying right now as I write this.

It's odd how some things from your childhood still effect you today.

What book did you read as a child that you hated or can't read again?

What are you reading?

Reading has always been a passion of mine, listening to audio books isn't the same and I don't retrain much of the information because it allows me to do other things while I listen so its just background noise.

I have at least 20 audiobooks in my app audiobook on my phone. I listen to it on when I am driving alone (which isn't often) and that is about the only time I actually retain any of the information I am taking in, which for me is important. I am reading to learn 90% and 10% of the time its a Jennifer Fallon book and I want to retrain that information for when I read the next book in her series.

Right now for instance I have an audio book playing in my ears while writing this in our local coffeeculture and I have 100% no idea what he is talking about other than self esteem because he has said it a million times and his tone changes when he says the word.

I used to be able to finish a book in a couple of days, and move on to the next one no issues. Since hitting my head this time and causing yet another brain injury I can barely pick up a book or find the focus to sit and read it. Today I started to read the book “The out-of-sync child has fun” this is a book I got a few months a go and wanted to read it right away to have activities to do with Blaine that would fill his buckets without driving me crazy this winter, while “winter” is here and I have just started it. I got a few pages read this time but that is the most I have read in months from a book.

My book list is still a mile long with books I want to read, need to read and should read. I am hoping after a little bit more recovery time I can get back to reading and learning new things (and hopefully retraining them).

This is my current started to read but haven't finished book list!

Girl Wash Your Face, I actually just started this one and read half the book in one sitting. It is an awesome book.

The Out-of-sync Child has fun, I am about 10 pages in on it and just can't focus on reading it.

The Myth of the spoiled child its an audiobook I have been working on forever.

What does your book list look like?

July 2018 Reading?

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There is never a moment I don't have a book with me for those emergency, I am stuck waiting in the car, a waiting room or pooping. I really have books everywhere one in the car, the bedroom, the bathroom and 3 audiobooks on my phone (whenever I have my phone from Blaine).

I just finished my car book and had to move my bedroom book to the car this is very sad because now I play word crack on my phone while listening to my audiobook until my phone dies at night. I know such and exciting life right?

When I read I have the ability to go into what I am reading, I am there, seeing, smelling and doing what they are. Good luck getting my attention away from the book. Audiobooks don't do the same for me, my mind wanders too much when I listen to audiobooks unless I am driving and I don't take it all in.

My car book that I just finished (only took 2 days) was called Heart Berries by Terese Marie Mailhot

First though within the first few pages of reading this book was WHAT THE HELL AM I READING! as I went along and kept reading, so much of what she had written touched my soul. I seen myself in her behaviours and actions. 

My bedroom book that is now my car book requires a high lighter because I am not just reading this book for pleasure. I am reading to better understand and help my son who has among other things SPD. The out-of-sync child by Carol Kranowitz. I am about half way through and learning so much, my blue high lighter is getting a good work out. 

The bathroom book, you know the one no one has lol, well mine is The Patrol by Ryan Flavelle, it is a Canadian book by a Canadian author. So far I have only read a few pages and I taken in by the way this author writes and creates a visual of his surroundings.  

 

Audiobooks, well I have a few on the go for that about 3 I think.

 

The myth of the spoiled child by Alfie Kohn, I love this author and this book!!! I can't wait to read more by him. I have started and restarted this book more than once. I need to get my son his own phone so I can go back to listening to my audiobooks while I drive instead of the CBC.
 

Mother who can't love by Susan Forward, I have a habit of putting this book on while I am cleaning and then end up leaving the room and forgetting it is on, maybe that is a sign that I am not ready for this book, YET!
 

Ignite the Fire by Jonathan Goodman I find this book is one that I need in hard copy and to have my high lighter handy. Not so much one I can just listen and take in the information

Well now I am in search of another car book, any good reads?

Currently Reading July 2017

Reading is something I don't get to do as much as I would like to. I try to at least get 20 minutes in a day but some days with the dogs, Blaine, the business, the house, the yard and life I just don't seem to have the time. I always have more then one books on the go at the same time. Normally there is one downstairs, upstairs, in the SUV, in the truck, in my beach/park bag and an audio-book on my phone.

The books I am reading right now are:

One solider by Dillon Hiller
      It is about a Canadian Soldier who joins in the fight against ISIS by volunteering to help right at the front lines with the Kurdish army. Its a good book, so far.

Women who Love too Much by Robin Norwood
         This book is amazing and one I will read over and over again as soon as I finish it. I will write more later on about this book and how it has helped me

Wizard Squared Rouge Agent #3 by K.E. Mills
       At a crucial moment in time, their Gerald turned left ... but the alternate reality Gerald turned right.  I am enjoying this one but I think I liked the first one the best.

A stolen life: A memoir by Jaycee Dugard
     It is the book written by the young girl who was kidnapped for about 18 years. This book is hard for me to read, it creates anxiety in me about Blaine that I would normally not have.

The book of dreams  by O.R Melling
      Well I like this book I couldn't figure out why there was back story I was just not understanding. Turns out in my search for the author while writing this blog post, the book I have is the 4th book in the series. Guess I have to go out and get the first book.

I am short one book right now because I just finished call of the wild by Cheryl Strayed


What are you reading right now? Do you recommend a book I should read?